What inspires me?
Successful and beautiful life stories?
I can talk about all the people and things that move me but at the end it still all comes down to Jesus. I’ve experienced small personal victories even when I didn’t know Him. Somehow, when I remind my soul by thinking about Him, reading His word, of who He is and what He has already done, I can think that anything is possible. My pursuits changes and it fires my soul! I mean, the Creator of the world loves me?? I can do anything!! Knowing this just makes me endure all the days and nights of pouring into hard work. Despite the work required, I enjoy it. Sometimes, I get this few seconds of thinking to myself, it’s too good to be true. For someone so high and magnificent to care about me. A sinner little me.
The Woman Who Was About To Be Stoned To Death.
I remember reaching a state of, "Lord I am ready to give up everything". I’ve heard of the story of the woman who was caught in the act of sin and the people were about to throw stones at her but I’ve never actually read the whole story straight from the Bible for myself. The first time I did it, the story pierced through my heart. Jesus did not condemn her. I read it at a time I felt so unworthy to come to the Lord. I mean He is HOLY. I make mistakes, inclined to judge others and pursue worldly things. And this,
"7 And as they continued to ask him, he stood up and said to them, “Let him who is without sin among you be the first to throw a stone at her.” 8 And once more he bent down and wrote on the ground. 9 But when they heard it, they went away one by one, beginning with the older ones, and Jesus was left alone with the woman standing before him. 10 Jesus stood up and said to her, “Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?” 11 She said, “No one, Lord.” And Jesus said, “Neither do I condemn you; go, and from now on sin no more.” ]] (John 8:7-11 ESV)
This rocked my world. What?? He did not strike her with lightning or tell her she’s going to hell? For some reason, even though these words from verse 11 were for the woman, I kind of sensed in my soul, He also spoke to me.
It was an unmistakable, life-changing moment that I cannot explain!
It felt like the kind of friend who did not judge me for making a mistake but still pushes me to still be in a good place organically just by simply being a friend, accepting me and pursuing good things with me. No hidden agendas. No manipulations. No control.
It was mind-blowing knowing that Jesus is not only God but also a good friend.
That acceptance + everything else He did for us, is the spark of my everything.